Monday, November 24, 2008

This, That and Irritated....

-3 days until Thanksgiving. Ummmm....I need to paint and put up at least 1 tree by then. UGH! Anyone wanna come help paint, clean or put up my tree?

-4 days until I spend the entire day at the Mall. Yes people, I am going to the Mall on Black Friday. But NOT to shop. So that the kids can perform and pass out Flyers for the Nutcracker.

-8 days until dress rehearsal at the Holiday Star. That brings both the thought of sheer panic and the thought of sheer joy. Finale is my favorite part of the production. I am not able to take a picture of finale because a picture is unable to catch the essence of the moment. It is amazing and breathtaking and makes me teary eyed and have goosebumps all at the same time. I have 5 costume to fix. OH MY GOSH! Procrastination!!! LOL

-12 days until our 1st Family Christmas Party of the season. That means I have to buy 1 more gift and finish sewing 1 gift before then. However 4 days of the 12 are going to be full of Nutcracker. YIKES! I am feeling the crunch. Anyone wanna help me sew?

-13 days until we check in for a stay at the RMH.

-14 days until Lindsay has surgery to place a drain. This in itself is enough to cause me to want to drink (HEAVILY) and vomit all at the same time.

I am really having issues with procrastination.

I am having a lot of trouble dealing with the fact that Lindsay has to have a drain trial. I am scared that she is going to need to be shunted. It causes me great anxiety to just think about it. People have this unreal and inaccurate belief that a shunt is the end all fix all. It is not. It is a man made device that if you are a LUCKY ONE you have minimal to no issues with it. However, REALISTICALLY....It is a straw. It clogs, breaks, and in our case we are lucky if the stupid thing works 40% of the time. Well, since we have this experience and we are now wise enough to realize that sometimes it is better left alone... Lindsay is going to have to show remarkable results with the drain trial. Gabe was EXCELLENT with the drain and he is still doing crappy so we are going to basically need the Hand of God to come down and tell us that shunting her IS what he wants for her because otherwise...It is not happening. We will do serial lumbar punctures before shunting her if the results are not what we need from them.

I know I said I would update about Gabe's appointment and I have briefly spoke to most of you about it. However it has taken me this long just to get to a point where I no longer have the horrible feelings that I did. Now...I just do not wish to talk about it and relive the appointment. Suffice to say, we need to see the plastic surgeon and I will make that appointment for January or February.

Oh, another thing that irritates me.... People who think that they have it worse than everyone else. ARGH! SHUT UP! Your child is not dying. It CAN be worse. ARGH! PMS...IS.A.BITCH

4 comments:

S,D,J,K's Mom said...

Michelle (((HUGHS))) My biggest Christmas prayer is good health to your babies.

What else can I say (((HUGHS))) Hang in there. YOu've been a great mommy and always will be.

Cole Twins said...

Hey Michelle - Hang in there. You are doing a teriffic job!!

Hope everything goes the way you'd like with Lindsay. We'll keep her in our prayers - Gabe too!!!

Lynn said...

HUGS Michelle!!!!

If I lived closer I would come (well ok only if it was warm) and help you paint. LOL

Wendi said...

(((Hugs))) my friend. Just lots and lots of hugs.